How Billie Eilish finally realized she has been ‘in love with girls’ her ‘whole life’

Billie Eilish was capable to peel backmost nan layers of her sexuality while moving connected a opus called “Lunch,” which is featured connected her forthcoming album, “Hit Me Hard and Soft.”

“That opus was really portion of what helped maine go who I am, to beryllium real,” nan Grammy winner, 22, told Rolling Stone for her May 2024 screen story, published Wednesday.

“I wrote immoderate of it earlier moreover doing thing pinch a girl, and past wrote nan remainder after.”

“Lunch” centers connected Eilish having specified a large crush connected a woman that she “likens activity pinch her to devouring a meal,” according to nan magazine. (“Hit Me Hard and Soft” will beryllium released connected May 17.)

“I’ve been successful emotion pinch girls for my full life, but I conscionable didn’t understand — until, past year, I realized I wanted my look successful a vagina,” nan “Happier Than Ever” vocalist further admitted.

Eilish had only dated men publicly, and her astir caller narration was pinch singer-songwriter Jesse Rutherford.

In May 2023, nan “Bad Guy” singer’s rep confirmed to Page Six exclusively that nan brace had broken up aft little than a twelvemonth of making love but remained “good friends.”

The erstwhile mates had sparked speculation that they were connected nan outs erstwhile Eilish went to past year’s Met Gala without Rutherford, 32, and was then seen getting cozy with character Ava Capri astatine an afterparty.

The “What Was I Made For?” songstress told Rolling Stone that she was “never planning” connected discussing her sexuality publically “in a cardinal years” and feels it’s “really frustrating” that it has go a talking point.

In November 2023, Variety published an question and reply pinch Eilish, successful which she revealed she was “physically attracted” to women but admitted she was besides “so intimidated” by their beauty and presence.

The “Ocean Eyes” vocalist did not explanation herself astatine nan time, but soon after, a reddish carpet newsman for nan aforesaid outlet asked Eilish whether she had meant to “come out” successful nan article.

“I didn’t [know I was coming out], but I kinda thought, wasn’t it obvious?” she responded astatine nan time. “I didn’t recognize group didn’t know.”

Eilish told Rolling Stone that she answered nan mobility because she didn’t want to beryllium rude but still felt a small exploited and wishes she hadn’t commented.

“I went into Billie Eilish question and reply mode, [like], ‘Oh, I don’t care. Yeah, I’ll opportunity whatever. Wasn’t it obvious?’” nan “NDA” vocalist explained. “And past afterwards I was like, ‘Wait. It wasn’t evident to me.’”

After nan reddish carpet chat, Eilish took to societal media to call retired Variety for “outing” her “at 11am alternatively of talking to [her] astir thing other that matters.”

“I’m fortunate capable to beryllium successful a clip erstwhile I’m capable to opportunity thing for illustration that and things spell OK for me,” nan “Wish You Were Gay” vocalist recognized to Rolling Stone. “That’s not really a batch of people’s acquisition is.”

Eilish concluded that astatine nan extremity of nan day, “Who f–king cares?” astir nan extracurricular noise.

“The full world abruptly decided who I was, and I didn’t get to opportunity thing aliases power immoderate of it,” nan “Everything I Wanted” vocalist added.

“Nobody should beryllium pressured into being 1 point aliases nan other, and I deliberation that there’s a batch of wanting labels each complete nan place. … It takes a while to find yourself, and I deliberation it’s really unfair, nan measurement that nan net bullies you into talking astir who you are and what you are.”